A STEP UP?

WELL....WE ALL AGREED THE OTHER DAY...

THAT IT WAS AFTER CF CAMP THAT THE FIRE,THE PASSION FOR GOD..WAS KINDLED...

EVER SINCE CF CAMP,I SEE GOD FROM ANOTHER PERSPECTIVE.WELL,I BOUGHT THE BOOK,PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE.IT IS LIKE A JOURNAL,WHERE YOU FIND YOUR PURPOSE IN LIFE.

ATTENDING ALPHA COURSE,CF,THE 11AM PRAYER,WELL.I FEEL LIKE IM ONE STEP UP THE SPIRITUAL LADDER.

LIKE THERE IS THIS CHANGE IN ME,YOU KNOW?

I USE TO WONDER,WHY DID GOD EVEN CREATE ME?

I DO NOT HAVE ANY TALENTS OR I AM NOT EVEN SPIRITUAL.

BUT YES,GOD DOES HAVE A PURPOSE IN MY LIFE.

HE WANTS ME TO LOVE HIM.AND TELL MY FRIENDS THAT HE LOVES THE TOO.THAT'S IT.SIMPLE.

IT IS THIS LOVING PART THAT IS HARD..SOMETIMES,I TEND TO THINK LIFE IS JUST ABOUT SCORING GOOD RESULTS,MARRY,HAPPY FAMILY,DO GOOD AND YOU DIE.

BUT DID JESUS REALLY DIE ON THE CROSS JUST FOR THAT?

WE OUGHT TO WORSHIP HIM.

YOU SEE,WORSHIP IS A LIFESTYLE...NOT JUST COMING TO CF,GOING CHURCH.THEN ONCE YOUR BACK HOME OR TO COLL,YOU BECOME WORLDLY.

WE TAKE GOD FOR GRANTED.WE ASSUME THAT,SINCE HE SAID HE WILL BE THERE FOR US ALL THE TIME,SO WHAT.CHILL,ENJOY.

PAIN COMES,PRAY.PAIN GOES,STRAY.

I KNOW ALOT OF PEOPLE WHO KNOW CHRIST IS THE ONE.BUT THE FEAR,

FEAR OF PARENTS.FEAR OF SO MANY OTHER THINGS.

CHRISTIANITY IS NOT JUST ANOTHER RELIGION.IT IS WAYYYY BEYOND THAT.

IT IS A RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST.A REAL RELATIONSHIP.

YOU DONT HAVE TO BE SCARED OF HIM.JUST LOVE HIM.

THATS IT.

if only i had it my way...

1) WHY MUST COLLEGE CALL THE PARENTS UP?

2)WHY EDEXCEL FEES SO EXPENSIVE?

3)WHY IS CHEMISTRY SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND?

4)WHY IS TRIALS SO NEAR?

....LIFE IS SUCH,I ASSUME.

WHEN PROBLEMS COME.THEY ALL COME ONE SHOT.

BUT IF GOOD TIMES DOES NOT LAST,SAME GOES TO PROBLEMS:)

AND MR-I-WILL-BE-THERE-FOR-YOU-ALWAYS,THANKS FOR MAKING MY DAY:)

BEYOND EXPECTATIONS..

god is amazing...

that thursday,woke up about 7am,packed,rushed to college,had a short prayer,got into bus...

sat wit cheryl.talked alot.laughed alot.honestly,i did not have that much expectations for the camp..

stopped at tapah..tapau-ed kfc with amanda,vy and li xian.think that's where i lost my wallet.

reached camerons.super excited.same dorm with becks,mandy,joanne,heng choc(shaving cream,;), yi xin,cheryl,crossy,carol..in other words,all noisy people;)...

first session was amazing.went to the altar to help 'catch' those who were falling..then weirdly,started crying for no reason..only then i realised..it was god's convictions upon me..pastor ben prayed and yes,i fell.god's power was to strong..pas ben said that i made god my servant.that i read the bible and prayed just for duty sake.that i am...

the apple of his eye;)..

my heaRT just broke..after that.god kept speaking to me from sessions to sessions..

had really good fellowship:)

met amazing people..kenneth,super lame..dorm partners,super hyper..su yin,yo mama jokes..my awesome nissi group members...;)..sean tay,super selamba guy..

and garry,was amazing..his dance skills;)

in short,i felt god.

and i know,i should let the world know him too.share his love.

tell them that hey,jesus died for you too..

:)

cf committee,guess god blessed this camp like never before;)

i.is.like.

you confused too?

life is confusing...
i thought it was right..it wasnt...
i thought he was the one..he wasnt...
i thought i could do it...i couldnt..
i thought i could have had it all...n yes,i didnt..

to benny,move on...the longer,the worse it gets...trust me..
its hard...but hey,nothing is easy in this world...

life sucks,now even more...

but for now,i shall enjoy my pd trip...

ignorance is bliss;)

miss kek jay lyn:)

i miss the times we spent in mcds.

the chinese uncle,the funny guy with the funny voice at the counter,and loads of other stuff.i remember the many times you belanjad me.and remember that girl from your church who came to accounts?damn over kan?muahahahahah!and heather's boyfriend!...hahaha..ohoh,remember,'jay,do not dig your own grave..'.guees half of my secondary after-school-life was spent with you.im sorry for ditching you for you know who,it was foolish of me,leaving you all alone with prawn..sorry for calling you stupid at some point.i did not mean it at all.you see,that is exactly how i speak with my siblings...you are my sister,so get the picture?...thanks for being there for me..you made me think more positively,put god first..stiil wish you were with my cousin..koffkoff;)..you are one of the funniest person i ever met..you know that eh?...lolz..all in all.I LOVE YOU!....hahaha,,miss you budak...lovessss:)

sorry havent sent your dresses honey:(..

good nite',world...