but how?

I just dont get it.

How do you move on?

its been two crazy years.

And i still remember every tiny thing about you.

how did you do it?

it hurts wayyy too much....wayy too much...

arrrrghhhh!the gospel.

jesus.

that's why.

stand up.walk tall.

nuff'said.

Whoooooshhhhhhhhhh!

goodmorning:)

I are havings my half boiled eggs while blogging today.

LOL.

Anyway,mum is sick:(

i guess its the cold weather.Kuala Lumpur is now like Cameron Highlands or something.

nothing really exciting for this week.Going to Penang this Friday for a wedding.

Still considering whether to attend the CERC camp.

Been sleeping wayyyyy too much this past few days.And going online wayyyy to long.

Teehee.

Im still yet to finish my church paperwork.And yeah,gotta arrange my jpj test date with the Abang.As a matter of fact,I really dont want to resit.Haih.

All the stress,sigh.

Already I have problems of my own.

Last year during Malaysian Studies class,Miss Sandya was like,'All those who bribed for their driving license,raise up your hands.' And about half the class raised up their hands.

This whole bribery issue is just so stupid.

I think it all boils down to your upbringing.But then again,there are other factors like your circle of friends and so on.My cousin brother,he's in the police force.He was told to accept bribes or else he would be in trouble.NAISE right?

This whole bribery issue explains why accident rates are on a rise in our country.

nuff' said.

UNEXPECTED.

goodmorning;)

well,was so excited about cf this morning.

but woke up,and jeng jeng jeng...

mr.once-a-month disease came to visit.

and fyi,the cramps i go through,i thank god i come out alive.

two weeks didnt attend cf.sigh.

feel so bad la.

neways,yesterday went out with jan,kav and jay.

for the first time,we went midvalley but just sat in mcds and little taiwan and talk and talk and talk.it was fun though.

ivy and shwe had exams,pav im nt sure but pu3 was at campus.

ohh,puteris bros wedding is coming up!

but before that,feb 4th is ramesh ana's wedding!

in penang.he's a reallly really close family friend:)

right now,im so tired.haih.i gotta type this church namelist thing.

then,renew my L license.

pray for my results,cos i know i screwed up.

right now,one word

BLAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!

NAISE.

FOUND THIS IN ONE OF THE OLD FOLDERS...

THATS MY ANA JOHNSON AND COUZ SISTER HEPHZI...

SINGING IN KLANG RECEPTION;)

OOOH,IVY'S BIRTHDAY IS NEARRRRRRRR!

I NEED TO GET HER SOMETHING.

MAH WIFEY:)

IT'S ABOUT TIME,ANYWAY...

YES PEOPLE,2 MORE PAPERS AND THEN...

THE WORSE...

RESULTS!!!!!

NEWAY,IM GLAD THAT EXAMS ARE GONNE END.
NERDING EVERYDAY,SITTIN IN THOSE HALLS,LISTENING TO THOSE INVIGILATORS,EXAMS AT 6.30,TIRED LA.


BUT TODAY I WANNA TALK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE.

WAS WATCHING OPRAH FEW DAYS BACK.

IT WAS ABOUT..

Just the facts
On May 1, 1990, Gregory Smart was shot and killed at his home in Derry, New Hampshire. Ultimately, a jury concluded that the killer was a 15 year old high school student named William Flynn. Gregory Smart's wife, Pamela (Pame) Smart was found guilty of accomplice to first-degree murder, conspiracy to commit first-degree murder, and witness tampering.
Testimony at the trial reported that Flynn and Smart were lovers, and Smart used Flynn as a hit man, threatening to terminate their relationship if he didn't follow through. Smart met Flynn at Winnacunnet High in Hampton, NH where she was the director of media services.
Flynn was sentenced to 28 years for second degree murder, Smart to life without parole. Both Pame Smart and Linda Wojas, her mother, have steadfastly proclaimed Smart's innocence and have been trying to get an appeal heard ever since the trial ended. So far, all requests have been denied.

So i watched the interview between lisa ling and pamela smart.

the thing that i do not understand is,the person who pulled the trigger gets parole but the person who apparently planned it got life in prison and no chance of parole.

I mean,if pamela smart really did plan it all,why would she not admit guilty?if she did,she would get parole and her sentence would be reduced.

but then again...

there was a wiretap proof where pamela and flynn were having a conversation and it seemed like pamela planned it all.

haih.

but what one of the guest on oprah said was true.

'SHE WAS PUNISHED FOR HER SIN,NOT HER CRIME....'

her sin was having a sexual relationship with flynn.

but in the first year of marriage,her husband,greg smart had an affair.that was why pamela decided to do the same.

that's how life is huh?

let God be the judge.

HAIH...

FINISHED 5 PAPERS ALREADY.

ALL WERE TOUGH LA.BUT MY HOPE IS IN BIO PAPER 3.

WAS ABLE TO DO,SO CROSSING FINGERS;)..

5 MORE PAPERS TO GO.

NO MATTER WHAT,I WANNA THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME THE WISDOM AND ALSO THE PRIVILEGE TO ACTUALLY STUDY AND SIT FOR EXAMS.

I KNOW,THERE ARE MANY KIDS WHOSE PARENTS CANT SUPPORT THEM TO FURTHER THEIR EDUCATION,SO I MUST BE GRATEFUL.

RIGHT NOW,IM HAVING ALOT OF DOUBTS.

NOT SURE IF I REALLY WANNA DO MEDICINE.

AFTER MY JUNE EXAMS,GONNA DO A LITTLE RESEARCH AND PRAY THAT GOD'S WILL SHOULD BE DONE.

IM ALSO WORKING OUT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.

ITS TOUGH,COS IM REALLY CHILDISH AND YEA.

BUT GOD UNDERSTANDS AND HE'LL HELP ME THROUGH.:)

HONESTLY CANT WAIT FOR EXAMS TO END.

GUESS WHAT?

THE CUTE YOUNGER BROTHER,,,

GIBBY AND HIS OTHER HALF;)

MY MAN:)

WATCHED THIS MOVIE ON ASTRO TODAY.

SYURGA CINTA.

YEAP,A MALAY SHOW.

IT WAS ABOUT THIS HAWT DUDE,AWAL ASHAARI.

HIS FRIENDS DARED HIM TO DATE A GIRL WEARING TUDUNG FOR

A MONTH,THEN DUMP HER.

HE DID JUST THAT,BUT LIKE ALL THE OTHER MOVIES,HE FALLS IN LOVE AND TADAA..HAPPY ENDING.

BUT REALLY,AWAL ASHAARI IS HANDSOME.

ESPECIALLY WHEN HE WEARS WHITE.

WELL,I LIKE ALL GUYS IN WHITE EH?

AND I OFTEN WATCH THIS SHOW CALLED ICARLY ON 612.

THRS THIS GUY CALLED GIBBY.

A CHUBBY DUDE WHO LOVES TAKING HIS TEE OUT.

AND HE HAS A BROTHER WHO LOOKS..

JUST LIKE HIM.LOL.

like the wind.

yeap.2010 just passed like that.

IN A WAY, I AM GLAD.

2010 WASNT THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE.

BAD SPM RESULTS,LEARNING WHO YOU'RE TRUE FRIENDS ARE,CULTURE SHOCK,MISSING HIGH SCHOOL,AND OOOH,I FAILED MY DRIVING TEST.BLUEEEKKK.

NOW WHEN I THINK OF 2010,MAYBE I SHUDNT HAVE STARTED COLLEGE SO FAST.

MAYBE I CHOSE THE WRONG SUBJECTS.

MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING ELSE.

WHY MEDICINE?...PRACTICALLLY MOST PEOPLE I KNOW WANT TO be DOCTORS,ACCOUNTANTS,ETC.

WHY MEDICINE?...READ THIS SURVEY IN THE STAR YESTERDAY.MORE LIKE A INTERVIEW LA.WALAO MAN.IT WAS ABOUT THIS GIRL,JUST STARTED HER HOUSEMANSHIP.

ITS REALLY NOT WHAT THEY SHOW IN HOUSE,ER AND SO ON.

SO WHY MEDICINE?...I GUESS,I WANT TO RELIEVE PAIN.THE JOY OF SAVING A PERSON'S LIFE,OR EVEN JUST HELPING TO RECOVER FROM A FEVER.

BEING A DOCTOR,PEOPLE COME TO YOU ON THE WORST DAY OF THEIR LIVES.

HAVING TO BE ABLE TO CURE THEM,THAT'S BLISS.

AND I ALWAYS LOVED BIOLOGY.NOT THAT MUCH IN ALEVELS,BUT HIGH SCHOOL,YEAP.

BUT THE process of getting there,walao.

I HATE STUDYING.LIKE REALLY.EXCEPT IF ITS MATHS LA.

INTERESTING SIKIT.

I THINK I KINDA GOT TRAUMATISED AFTER SPM.

AFTER ALL THE STUDYING,GETTIN BAD RESULTS.

I GUESS IM KINDA SCARED TO NERD,COS IM SCARED of failure.

BUT NAH,ENOUGH OF MAKING EXCUSES!

I SHALL NERD MY ASS OFF.

AND BE....DR.GRISELDA PEARL SOMEDAY.

OR DOCTOR PEARL.SOUNDS GREAT EH?

PERASAN!

BACK TO ALEVELS,WELL.

MAYBE IF I WENT BACK TO 2010,AND WAS BRAVE ENOUGH,I WOULD HAVE DONE..

MASS COMM.OR JOURNALISM.

ANYTHING THAT involves lotsa TALKING,meeting FAMOUS OR ORDINARY PEOLPLE,INTERVIEWING THEM,HOSTING A COOK SHOW,PLANNING AKON'S CONCERT IN MALAYSIA,AND YEAH.

YOU GET WHAT I MEAN.

BUT SINCE I AM ALREADY IN THIS,

GOD'S WILL BE DONE:)

2011,BE NICE.