tadaa....:)

GOT UP IN THE MORNING,10AM.

THANKS TO MY HUMAN ALARM CLOCK,MY MUM:)

'CRYSTAL,CRYSTAL!'...SO YEAH...HAD TO GET UP...

MANDI MANDI,HAD MY FAV HORLICKS,THEN MUM ASKED ME TO BAKE CHOCOLATE CHIPS...SHES BEEN HAVING FLU,SORE THROAT,ETC.SO HAD TO TOLONG.

FYI,I SUCK AT BAKING.SIS IS THE PRO.

ANYWAY,IT TURNED OUT OKAY LA...

THEN MADE LUNCH FOR MUM.NASI GORENG CINA WITH FRIED CHICKEN.

I SUCK AT COOKING,BUT THE MEAL TURNED OUT REALLLLLLLLLY GOOD.NO KIDDING;)PRAISE GOD!

OOOH,JAY DID EXTREMELY WELL IN HER EXAMS AND SHE JUST GOT HER TOOTH EXTRACTED;)IM HAPPY FOR HER....*referrence to her exams*

well,it has been a rough week.havent been nerding much.

OOOH,TOMORROW GOING LUNCH WITH KIN,JER,VY AND ALL..

THE USUAL 6 OF US:)

BUT...JENG JENG JENG....

MY VYVY WILL BE AT PENANG:(..SHE CANT JOIN US:(...

SADLY,OTHER DAYS KIN AND TIM AND I CANT MAKE IT.SORI VYVY.

WE WILL MISS YOU:)

ANYWAY,GUESS WHAT?

GONNA SIT FOR MY JPJ TEST THIS FRIDAY...

IM KINDA SCARED AND EXCITED..

REALLY HOPE I PASS.HELP ME KAY,GOD?-PUPPY EYES-

IM GIFTED LA.MY DRIVING INSTRUCTER,ABANG IZAT IS REALLY A FUN DUDE.

HES REALLY TALKATIVE AND SO AM I.LOL.

BY THE WAY...

I STARTED THIS NEW HABIT.LOL.

TALKING TO GOD EVERY NIGHT.

BEFORE I SLEEP LA.USUALLY I JUST THANK HIM,SAY LORD'S PRAYER AND TIDUR.....

BUT FOR THE PAST TWO DAYS....BEEN LIKE,YOU KNOW...LIKE HOW I TALK TO A FRIEND?...IT FEELS GOOD ACTUALLY:)

OOH,AND I REALISED SOMETHING FROM YESTERDAY...

NOT ALL FRIENDS ARE REAL FRIENDS.LOL.

SO LONG;)

WHERE'S MY GIFT?

TEEHEE.

ITS THE SEASON:)

SIS GOT ME SPEAKERS FOR MY PC.SO SWEET EH?

I NEED TO GET MY FAMILY SOMETHING TOO.AND MY DARLING EX8:)

OHOH,WE ALL WENT OUT WITH TIM THE OTHER DAY.THE USUAL 6 OF US.

TIM,VY,JAY,KIN,JER AND I;)

KIN HAD EXAMS AND JER HAD STATS CLASS.

JAN JOINED US TOO.WISHED SHWE AND ALL COULD HAVE COME TOO.

NEVERTHELESS,WE HAD AWESOME FUN.

JAN MADE US RUN IN THE RAIN.LOL

WE HAD KL CHILDRENS DAY YESTERDAY.

PJ KIDS DID WELL,AS USUAL;)

WELL....TALKING ABOUT GIFTS.

I WAS WONDERING WHAT WAS GOD'S GIFT FOR ME THIS YEAR.

OF COURSE,HIS SACRIFICE ON THE CROSS WAS THE BEST GIFT EVER.

BUT FOR 2010,I REALISED TWO IMPORTANT GIFTS GOD HAS GIVEN ME.

1) MY AMAZING FAMILY!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING.THROUGH MY HAPINESS,THROUGH MY JOY,YOU ALL WERE THERE.WELL,I KNOW,I AM THE REBEL OF THE HOUSE.TEEHEE.YOUNGEST MA.

MANJA;)

PAPA,MUMMY,ANA AND AKA,IM BLESSED TO HAVE YOU ALL AS MY FAMILY;)

2)MY SISTERS FROM ANOTHER MOTHER!

EX8:)

I LOVE YOU GUYS ALOT.WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS FOR SO LONG AND NOTHING CAN SEPARATE US.TRULY,YOU GUYS ARE GODSENT.WHATEVER HAPPENS,EX8 FOREVER AND EVER:)

JINGLE BELLS:)

christmas is around the corner:)

going to thailand on christmas night with family:)

anyway...

had a short holiday with mum.Went to kedah,then penang.

well,all in all,it was fun and spiritually edifying:)

i just feel bad about children's day.

suppose to help with choral speaking,ffk last minute.

suppose to help with emcee-ing,ffk last minute.

this is what i am afraid of at times.

most of time,actually.

FAILING PEOPLE.

MAKING PEOPLE COUNT ON YOU,THEN POOF!,DISAPPEAR!

having your family count you,having your friends count on you,having people you barely know count on you,..its tiring...

this whole alevels things...

EDUCATION IS FUN...

BUT TO COME TO THE POINT WHERE ITS FUN,IT TAKES YOUR SWEAT AND BLOOD...

well.WHEN THE TOUGH GETS GOING,THE GOING GETS TOUGH EH?

SO INSTEAD OF COMPLAINING,IM GOING TO....

MAKE.A.DIFFERENCE.

keke.

one step at a time la kay;)

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

well said.

IN SHORT,DONT BE AFRAID OF.YOURSELF.

ANYWAY,HOHOHOHOHO!MERRY CHRISTMAS!

pfft.

sometimes its just funny...

we tend to stereotype people sometimes...and when the person does something out of the ordinary...

you're shocked.extremely shocked.

but thank god,this situations, i can handle..

call it immature,childish,inconsiderate,i dunno...

never had i ever to explain my actions,but well..i was asked too..
its funny how a simple act of oops,i forgot!,can piss someone off..

hurting people i love was something i always stayed away from...but if ..

you feel hurt,i cant do anything right?





you have messed up before...

now,i guess..its my turn...

so,BEAR WITH IT.

i am what i am.

deal with it,OR LEAVE.

i have always wanted to bungee jump...

KEKJAYLYNDEAREST,JOM?

your the only daredevil i know;)

TEEHEE.
NEVER LIKED POTTER.NEVER WILL.

so what HAPPENED?

WELL,AS FOR THE PROBLEMS,

COMMITTED IT TO GOD'S HANDS.

YES GOD,I HAVE LEARNT MY LESSON.

YOU CHASTISE ME,COS YOU LOVE ME:)

BASICALLY,HAD CF SLEEOPOVER.WAS FUN AND CONTROVERSIAL I MUST SAY.BUT YES,GOD IS USING EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US A VESSEL.HOPE NEXT SEM WILL BE AMAZING;)

AND OH,WENT OUT WITH JER,JAY AND KIN.WAS FUN.LAUGHED ALOT.FEELS REALLY GOOD TO HANG OUT WITH HIGH SCHOOL BUDDIES.THANKS FOR THE GIFT JER;)..

I DONT KNOW WHY,BUT I GET REALLY EXCITED WHEN I HANG OUT WITH HIGH SCHOOL BUDDIES.IT FEELS AT HOME.HMMMM.

NEWAY,GOTTA START WORKING MY ASS OF FOR FINALS.AND OH,CULLEN HAS A RIVAL.

SEE THE GUY THERE?JOSH LUCAS.DIVINE,I ADMIT.

SIMPLY DIVINE.

oh my CJ...

WELL,I DONT REALLY FOLLOW TOP CHEF ON DIVA CHANNEL.

BUT ONCE IN AWHILE,I DO WATCH.

BUT GUESS WHAT,CJ IS OUT!!!!

NOT ONLY IS HE GOOD LOOKING AND A EXCELLENT CHEF,HE IS A REAL GOOD LEADER AND PEACEMAKER.

ANTHONY BOURDAIN OR WHATEVER INSULTED HIM SOOO MUCH:(

WELL,MAKE ANTHONY COOK IN A REALLY TERRIBLE KITCHEN WHERE EVERYONE HAS TO SHARE ONE STOVE,THEN TALK AND DISCRIMINATE.

SHOULD HAVE SENT SARA BACK,NOT CJ!

JUST COS HE MADE SOME BROCOLLINI CRAP,SO WHAT?THINK ABOUT ALL THE OTHER DISHES HE MADE,THAT MADE HIM STAY TILL TOP 5.

BULLSHIT MAN.JUST COS OF THE BROCOLLINI.

CJ,YOU ROCK:)

im scared.

but arghhhhhhhhh.

stupid tv shows.

stupid facebook.

stupid me.

griselda pearl=procastinate.

nuf' said.

gratitude:)

thank you GOD for

1)solving my problems:)

2)undertaking for high praise

3)for the healing you are going to give amanda and joel

4)helping me pass my test tomorrow

5)helping jer speak in cempaka today

6)stop me from procastinating and start nerding

7)for the good friends around me

8)for loving me,regardless.

tooooooooo infinity;)

love.you.jesus.

BLUEEK.TRIALS.BLUEEEEK.

or MAYBE IM JUST DUMB.

BLAAARRRGHHHH.

ENUF ' SAID.

YOU GUYS.

JANANI ANAND

SHWETAMBRA

KEK JAY LYN

PUTERI NURSYIFA

IVY HONG

KAVINA KAUR

PAVALLAM SIVAKUMAR

YOU GUYS ARE AN AMAZING BUNCH OF PEOPLE.

IF I WAS ASKED,WHAT WAS THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME,BESIDES OTHER STUFF LAH,IT WOULD BE YOU GUYS.

BEING WITH 7 OF YOU GUYS,I CAN BE WHAT I WANT,SAY WHAT I WANT,ETC.OF COURSE IVY WOULD SHUT UP GRIS,BUT HAHA;)

YOU GUYS GET WHAT I MEAN RIGHT?

JAY,SORRY FOR CALLING YOU STUPID AT SOME POINT.YOU KNOW I DID NOT MEAN THAT.FOR ALL THOSE TIMES I DITCHED YOU FOR -YOU-KNOW-WHO,IM SORRY.

JAN,MY P.I.C..SORRY IF I FFK-ED YOU LAST MINUTE for our outings.THANKS FOR ALL THOSE GOOD FOOD;0..AND SORRY I DROPPED YOUR CAMERA YEA.;)

PUTERI,YOU ARE ONE GREAT FRIEND.SORRY FOR CALLING YOU TULANG:(..I LOVE YOUR ASS NOW:)KEKE.

SHWE,SORRY FOR TEASING YOU ABOUT BK,OR ABOUT YOUR EATING HABITS.BUT REALLY,YOU LOST ALOT OF WEIGHT.YOU TOO,JAN.

IVY,SORRY FOR ALL THOSE TIMES I BLAMED YOU FOR NO REASON ABOUT YOU-KNOW-WHO.LOVE YOU HONG.

KAV.ERM...SORRY ABOUT ALL THOSE TRANSPORT JOKES.LOL!THANKS FOR SHARING ZEE MOMENTS WITH ME.I STOPPED WATCHING THOUGH:)

PAV,SORRY FOR ALL THOSE TIMES I GOT PISSED CAUSE YOU COULD NOT MAKE IT FOR OUR X8 OUTINGS;0...LOVES YOUS...

IN SHORT,I LOVE YOU GUYS SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.NO OTHER FRIENDS,BOYS,OR WHATEVER,(EXCLUDING CULLEN,JKN:)...CAN SEPARATE US...

TO EX8!

A STEP UP?

WELL....WE ALL AGREED THE OTHER DAY...

THAT IT WAS AFTER CF CAMP THAT THE FIRE,THE PASSION FOR GOD..WAS KINDLED...

EVER SINCE CF CAMP,I SEE GOD FROM ANOTHER PERSPECTIVE.WELL,I BOUGHT THE BOOK,PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE.IT IS LIKE A JOURNAL,WHERE YOU FIND YOUR PURPOSE IN LIFE.

ATTENDING ALPHA COURSE,CF,THE 11AM PRAYER,WELL.I FEEL LIKE IM ONE STEP UP THE SPIRITUAL LADDER.

LIKE THERE IS THIS CHANGE IN ME,YOU KNOW?

I USE TO WONDER,WHY DID GOD EVEN CREATE ME?

I DO NOT HAVE ANY TALENTS OR I AM NOT EVEN SPIRITUAL.

BUT YES,GOD DOES HAVE A PURPOSE IN MY LIFE.

HE WANTS ME TO LOVE HIM.AND TELL MY FRIENDS THAT HE LOVES THE TOO.THAT'S IT.SIMPLE.

IT IS THIS LOVING PART THAT IS HARD..SOMETIMES,I TEND TO THINK LIFE IS JUST ABOUT SCORING GOOD RESULTS,MARRY,HAPPY FAMILY,DO GOOD AND YOU DIE.

BUT DID JESUS REALLY DIE ON THE CROSS JUST FOR THAT?

WE OUGHT TO WORSHIP HIM.

YOU SEE,WORSHIP IS A LIFESTYLE...NOT JUST COMING TO CF,GOING CHURCH.THEN ONCE YOUR BACK HOME OR TO COLL,YOU BECOME WORLDLY.

WE TAKE GOD FOR GRANTED.WE ASSUME THAT,SINCE HE SAID HE WILL BE THERE FOR US ALL THE TIME,SO WHAT.CHILL,ENJOY.

PAIN COMES,PRAY.PAIN GOES,STRAY.

I KNOW ALOT OF PEOPLE WHO KNOW CHRIST IS THE ONE.BUT THE FEAR,

FEAR OF PARENTS.FEAR OF SO MANY OTHER THINGS.

CHRISTIANITY IS NOT JUST ANOTHER RELIGION.IT IS WAYYYY BEYOND THAT.

IT IS A RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST.A REAL RELATIONSHIP.

YOU DONT HAVE TO BE SCARED OF HIM.JUST LOVE HIM.

THATS IT.

if only i had it my way...

1) WHY MUST COLLEGE CALL THE PARENTS UP?

2)WHY EDEXCEL FEES SO EXPENSIVE?

3)WHY IS CHEMISTRY SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND?

4)WHY IS TRIALS SO NEAR?

....LIFE IS SUCH,I ASSUME.

WHEN PROBLEMS COME.THEY ALL COME ONE SHOT.

BUT IF GOOD TIMES DOES NOT LAST,SAME GOES TO PROBLEMS:)

AND MR-I-WILL-BE-THERE-FOR-YOU-ALWAYS,THANKS FOR MAKING MY DAY:)

BEYOND EXPECTATIONS..

god is amazing...

that thursday,woke up about 7am,packed,rushed to college,had a short prayer,got into bus...

sat wit cheryl.talked alot.laughed alot.honestly,i did not have that much expectations for the camp..

stopped at tapah..tapau-ed kfc with amanda,vy and li xian.think that's where i lost my wallet.

reached camerons.super excited.same dorm with becks,mandy,joanne,heng choc(shaving cream,;), yi xin,cheryl,crossy,carol..in other words,all noisy people;)...

first session was amazing.went to the altar to help 'catch' those who were falling..then weirdly,started crying for no reason..only then i realised..it was god's convictions upon me..pastor ben prayed and yes,i fell.god's power was to strong..pas ben said that i made god my servant.that i read the bible and prayed just for duty sake.that i am...

the apple of his eye;)..

my heaRT just broke..after that.god kept speaking to me from sessions to sessions..

had really good fellowship:)

met amazing people..kenneth,super lame..dorm partners,super hyper..su yin,yo mama jokes..my awesome nissi group members...;)..sean tay,super selamba guy..

and garry,was amazing..his dance skills;)

in short,i felt god.

and i know,i should let the world know him too.share his love.

tell them that hey,jesus died for you too..

:)

cf committee,guess god blessed this camp like never before;)

i.is.like.

you confused too?

life is confusing...
i thought it was right..it wasnt...
i thought he was the one..he wasnt...
i thought i could do it...i couldnt..
i thought i could have had it all...n yes,i didnt..

to benny,move on...the longer,the worse it gets...trust me..
its hard...but hey,nothing is easy in this world...

life sucks,now even more...

but for now,i shall enjoy my pd trip...

ignorance is bliss;)

miss kek jay lyn:)

i miss the times we spent in mcds.

the chinese uncle,the funny guy with the funny voice at the counter,and loads of other stuff.i remember the many times you belanjad me.and remember that girl from your church who came to accounts?damn over kan?muahahahahah!and heather's boyfriend!...hahaha..ohoh,remember,'jay,do not dig your own grave..'.guees half of my secondary after-school-life was spent with you.im sorry for ditching you for you know who,it was foolish of me,leaving you all alone with prawn..sorry for calling you stupid at some point.i did not mean it at all.you see,that is exactly how i speak with my siblings...you are my sister,so get the picture?...thanks for being there for me..you made me think more positively,put god first..stiil wish you were with my cousin..koffkoff;)..you are one of the funniest person i ever met..you know that eh?...lolz..all in all.I LOVE YOU!....hahaha,,miss you budak...lovessss:)

sorry havent sent your dresses honey:(..

good nite',world...

ignorance is....SAD

THINGS I DONT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND NOW..

1)MATHS-M1
2)CHEM-just a little,here and there
3)the importance of malaysian studies
4)why all my classes has to start at 8am
5)why life has to BE so hard.
6)why my dad is not a prime minister or something like that

regardless of all that,happy birthday mr.gopi kuppuchitty;)

results are going to be out so soon..will i succeed?

dear god,help me kay.i loves you lotsa;)..although my spiritual life is pretty much down the drain,ur a great god.

fyi,still not done with global warming essay.

chaochao:)

finally....

yes,i havent been updating my blog for quite awhile...suki pun marah...

lolz...lets see,my hp keypad gone sasau.bro went to collect it from mr.poon's shop.

currently,doing my global warming essay.mr.vj must be soo pleased.anyway,new timetale is so annoying.sigh..

last night was mcrave!we went over to to zen's for make up and so on.god bless jay for lending me her dress.after this must go shopping already for dresses.ok mum?:)

suk was a tooth fairy/bridesmaid/flowergirl/john's girlfriend.;)..baby zhen was a super hawt hawaian chick;)her hair and tattoo was awesome!darling krys was LILO!...
EVERYONE LOOKED GOOD BUT GUES WHAT?...hujan...however,our great god stopped the rain by 9pm:)the performances was great..especially kenneth,the rapper..super awesome...:)..makan makan,camwhore,n i chaoed by 10.15pm.cos mumy was alredi outside;)..balik and guess what?they played this movie called badsha on vannavil!.its a super old movie but my favourite actor yang lakon.so yea,damn excited!by 12am,was like a kangkung edi..tidur...btw,i miss ex8;)..the fun we use to have dressing up and all;)...and suk,krys,zen,u guys know i love yawl;)..koks n zen,cepat upload gambar kay?lovess!

hari ini apa jadi?

6.45 am
snooze

7.00am
snooze

9.45am
two misscalls frm zen baby.

yes i missed biology class in the morning.but guees what..?

-drum rolls-

mr.mohan had to attend some meeting and he didnt teach...

-dhfksdaghdjkbfhusddhfwjklfnhuhuhu-

dat was the sound of joy;)...so yeaa,texted suk baby.she was gna meet mr.micheal regarding her taekwnado club.lolz..that girl i tell you,nampak je sweet,but inside...merbahaya..lolz..texted benny.lunch at 11.30am..but was at college by 11am,had campus revo with the cf group.twas good:)..lunch at BK.talked alot bout 'cheesecake'...love is complicating...but benny came to CF!YEAH:)..

we played this game called marriage..twas fun but i gt pissed abit cos everyone was talkin n yea..serene was like....'gris u okay?..chill okay?..lolz..n ERIC came to my rescue!..he was like '
can everyone plz cooperate and listen to griselda?...'awww..thanks man..malvin from DUMC was sooo funnay i tell you...overall,CF was fun:)..walked back with ashvin,the new student council member.YEAH:0...KEEP HEARING THE SONG SMILE BY UNCLE KRACKER...more than 40 times edi..lolz...doing my 'zine report.got the global warming thing.sigh...dad was singing my mum some really old songs.romantic but funnay!...mums off to the pharmacy..n thanks des..'still tido but good morning anyway..'so sweeto..lolz..back to the 'zine report...chao

darn....

i know you hate me now...after what i told you...but its for better good...

must nerd chemistry....more and more chemistry...

lunched with aaron,zhen,suk,krystle and priya joined us too..!

had chap fan:0..good food...malaysian studies ended early..thank god!..now,must go todo..zzzzz..

p.s:benny made my day.thought me how to laugh again.thx;)

how about some LOVE?

21. Curious Case of Benjamin Button
Daisy: Would you still love me if I were old and saggy?
Benjamin Button: Would you still love ME if I were young and had acne? When I’m afraid of what’s under the bed? Or if I end up wetting the bed?

Daisy: Will you sleep with me?
Benjamin Button: Absolutely.

Benjamin Button: I wanna remember us just as we are now.
Mrs. Maple: Benjamin, we’re meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?

Daisy: Loving you is worth everything to me…
. City of Angels
“I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it.”

..so sweet eh?...bilogy homework calling me...xoxoxox

sigh....

trevor,a mckl student died.
miss moey told us that he was a very quiet boy.he's frm uganda btw.
what saddens me the most is that he never had a close friend.sigh...
so miss moey left us a challenge...to reach out...to make someone's day...
to save a soul...sigh...we had the memorial for jacinth and trevor yeaterday..god gave me the strength to not cry....
...the verse that came to me was precious in the sight of god is the death of his saints..and suddenly,miss moey recited the same verse...i guess god is really coming soon...

dear god,pardon me oh lord...for not reaching out..for not spreading your word...your truth...your salvation...help me,guide me..that i may lift up thy name..and yours alone...

LIFE IS FRAGILE-yan gen

ROFL...

Most Wanted
Little Ronnie's kindergarten class was on a field trip to their local police station where they saw pictures tacked to a bulletin board of the 10 most wanted criminals. One of the youngsters pointed to a picture and asked if it really was the photo of a wanted person.

'Yes,' said the policeman. 'The detectives want very badly to capture him.'

Little Ronnie asked, 'Why didn't you keep him when you took his picture?'

Caught with an Axe in His Hand
Mr Harris, the 3rd grade teacher asked, 'George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted it. Now, Iris, do you know why his father didn't punish him?'

Iris replied, 'Because George still had the axe in his hand?'

H.E.C.T.I.C

boom!its thursday:)
slept super late last night.watched er at 1am.:)
dr.kovac is truly hot!
i am kind of excited and scared for sunday.sister getting married.
and i was told to read a poem.WUWUWUWU:(...
btw,jan's dog passed away.i hope she will be ok.jer told me kins coming over his place.they are going too have some bible study.spiritual boys;)


I MUST INSAF SOON.REALLY SOON.KEKE.

GUESS I WONT BE BLOGGIN TILL SUNDAY.

BYEBYE.ADIOS...

to MED or not to MED?

.....YES I AM INTERESTED IN MEDICINE.BUT DO I REALLY WANT TO SPEND HALF MY LIFE,STUDYING AND...HAIZ..there are much easier things in life.culinary arts,mass comm,etc.of course its tough as well,but from what i hear,medicine is wayyyy harder.

i really enjoy watching shows like ER and HOUSE.workin in da ER sounds n looks reali cool.imagine,saving lives n having patients and their families trust in you..WOW..
BUT OF COURSE,its not simple.currently doing my research...hopefully by next year june,im fully confident in what i wna do..rite nw,still getting over jacinth's sudden death..she actuali survived till da hosp but da doctors cudnt treat her serious head injuries..u see,even then..doctors play da most important part.i bet they tried their level best..

to eveyone mourning for jacinth wee,our loss...HEAVEN'S GAIN..