IT'S ABOUT TIME,ANYWAY...

YES PEOPLE,2 MORE PAPERS AND THEN...

THE WORSE...

RESULTS!!!!!

NEWAY,IM GLAD THAT EXAMS ARE GONNE END.
NERDING EVERYDAY,SITTIN IN THOSE HALLS,LISTENING TO THOSE INVIGILATORS,EXAMS AT 6.30,TIRED LA.


BUT TODAY I WANNA TALK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE.

WAS WATCHING OPRAH FEW DAYS BACK.

IT WAS ABOUT..

Just the facts
On May 1, 1990, Gregory Smart was shot and killed at his home in Derry, New Hampshire. Ultimately, a jury concluded that the killer was a 15 year old high school student named William Flynn. Gregory Smart's wife, Pamela (Pame) Smart was found guilty of accomplice to first-degree murder, conspiracy to commit first-degree murder, and witness tampering.
Testimony at the trial reported that Flynn and Smart were lovers, and Smart used Flynn as a hit man, threatening to terminate their relationship if he didn't follow through. Smart met Flynn at Winnacunnet High in Hampton, NH where she was the director of media services.
Flynn was sentenced to 28 years for second degree murder, Smart to life without parole. Both Pame Smart and Linda Wojas, her mother, have steadfastly proclaimed Smart's innocence and have been trying to get an appeal heard ever since the trial ended. So far, all requests have been denied.

So i watched the interview between lisa ling and pamela smart.

the thing that i do not understand is,the person who pulled the trigger gets parole but the person who apparently planned it got life in prison and no chance of parole.

I mean,if pamela smart really did plan it all,why would she not admit guilty?if she did,she would get parole and her sentence would be reduced.

but then again...

there was a wiretap proof where pamela and flynn were having a conversation and it seemed like pamela planned it all.

haih.

but what one of the guest on oprah said was true.

'SHE WAS PUNISHED FOR HER SIN,NOT HER CRIME....'

her sin was having a sexual relationship with flynn.

but in the first year of marriage,her husband,greg smart had an affair.that was why pamela decided to do the same.

that's how life is huh?

let God be the judge.

HAIH...

FINISHED 5 PAPERS ALREADY.

ALL WERE TOUGH LA.BUT MY HOPE IS IN BIO PAPER 3.

WAS ABLE TO DO,SO CROSSING FINGERS;)..

5 MORE PAPERS TO GO.

NO MATTER WHAT,I WANNA THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME THE WISDOM AND ALSO THE PRIVILEGE TO ACTUALLY STUDY AND SIT FOR EXAMS.

I KNOW,THERE ARE MANY KIDS WHOSE PARENTS CANT SUPPORT THEM TO FURTHER THEIR EDUCATION,SO I MUST BE GRATEFUL.

RIGHT NOW,IM HAVING ALOT OF DOUBTS.

NOT SURE IF I REALLY WANNA DO MEDICINE.

AFTER MY JUNE EXAMS,GONNA DO A LITTLE RESEARCH AND PRAY THAT GOD'S WILL SHOULD BE DONE.

IM ALSO WORKING OUT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.

ITS TOUGH,COS IM REALLY CHILDISH AND YEA.

BUT GOD UNDERSTANDS AND HE'LL HELP ME THROUGH.:)

HONESTLY CANT WAIT FOR EXAMS TO END.

GUESS WHAT?

THE CUTE YOUNGER BROTHER,,,

GIBBY AND HIS OTHER HALF;)

MY MAN:)

WATCHED THIS MOVIE ON ASTRO TODAY.

SYURGA CINTA.

YEAP,A MALAY SHOW.

IT WAS ABOUT THIS HAWT DUDE,AWAL ASHAARI.

HIS FRIENDS DARED HIM TO DATE A GIRL WEARING TUDUNG FOR

A MONTH,THEN DUMP HER.

HE DID JUST THAT,BUT LIKE ALL THE OTHER MOVIES,HE FALLS IN LOVE AND TADAA..HAPPY ENDING.

BUT REALLY,AWAL ASHAARI IS HANDSOME.

ESPECIALLY WHEN HE WEARS WHITE.

WELL,I LIKE ALL GUYS IN WHITE EH?

AND I OFTEN WATCH THIS SHOW CALLED ICARLY ON 612.

THRS THIS GUY CALLED GIBBY.

A CHUBBY DUDE WHO LOVES TAKING HIS TEE OUT.

AND HE HAS A BROTHER WHO LOOKS..

JUST LIKE HIM.LOL.

like the wind.

yeap.2010 just passed like that.

IN A WAY, I AM GLAD.

2010 WASNT THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE.

BAD SPM RESULTS,LEARNING WHO YOU'RE TRUE FRIENDS ARE,CULTURE SHOCK,MISSING HIGH SCHOOL,AND OOOH,I FAILED MY DRIVING TEST.BLUEEEKKK.

NOW WHEN I THINK OF 2010,MAYBE I SHUDNT HAVE STARTED COLLEGE SO FAST.

MAYBE I CHOSE THE WRONG SUBJECTS.

MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING ELSE.

WHY MEDICINE?...PRACTICALLLY MOST PEOPLE I KNOW WANT TO be DOCTORS,ACCOUNTANTS,ETC.

WHY MEDICINE?...READ THIS SURVEY IN THE STAR YESTERDAY.MORE LIKE A INTERVIEW LA.WALAO MAN.IT WAS ABOUT THIS GIRL,JUST STARTED HER HOUSEMANSHIP.

ITS REALLY NOT WHAT THEY SHOW IN HOUSE,ER AND SO ON.

SO WHY MEDICINE?...I GUESS,I WANT TO RELIEVE PAIN.THE JOY OF SAVING A PERSON'S LIFE,OR EVEN JUST HELPING TO RECOVER FROM A FEVER.

BEING A DOCTOR,PEOPLE COME TO YOU ON THE WORST DAY OF THEIR LIVES.

HAVING TO BE ABLE TO CURE THEM,THAT'S BLISS.

AND I ALWAYS LOVED BIOLOGY.NOT THAT MUCH IN ALEVELS,BUT HIGH SCHOOL,YEAP.

BUT THE process of getting there,walao.

I HATE STUDYING.LIKE REALLY.EXCEPT IF ITS MATHS LA.

INTERESTING SIKIT.

I THINK I KINDA GOT TRAUMATISED AFTER SPM.

AFTER ALL THE STUDYING,GETTIN BAD RESULTS.

I GUESS IM KINDA SCARED TO NERD,COS IM SCARED of failure.

BUT NAH,ENOUGH OF MAKING EXCUSES!

I SHALL NERD MY ASS OFF.

AND BE....DR.GRISELDA PEARL SOMEDAY.

OR DOCTOR PEARL.SOUNDS GREAT EH?

PERASAN!

BACK TO ALEVELS,WELL.

MAYBE IF I WENT BACK TO 2010,AND WAS BRAVE ENOUGH,I WOULD HAVE DONE..

MASS COMM.OR JOURNALISM.

ANYTHING THAT involves lotsa TALKING,meeting FAMOUS OR ORDINARY PEOLPLE,INTERVIEWING THEM,HOSTING A COOK SHOW,PLANNING AKON'S CONCERT IN MALAYSIA,AND YEAH.

YOU GET WHAT I MEAN.

BUT SINCE I AM ALREADY IN THIS,

GOD'S WILL BE DONE:)

2011,BE NICE.

tadaa....:)

GOT UP IN THE MORNING,10AM.

THANKS TO MY HUMAN ALARM CLOCK,MY MUM:)

'CRYSTAL,CRYSTAL!'...SO YEAH...HAD TO GET UP...

MANDI MANDI,HAD MY FAV HORLICKS,THEN MUM ASKED ME TO BAKE CHOCOLATE CHIPS...SHES BEEN HAVING FLU,SORE THROAT,ETC.SO HAD TO TOLONG.

FYI,I SUCK AT BAKING.SIS IS THE PRO.

ANYWAY,IT TURNED OUT OKAY LA...

THEN MADE LUNCH FOR MUM.NASI GORENG CINA WITH FRIED CHICKEN.

I SUCK AT COOKING,BUT THE MEAL TURNED OUT REALLLLLLLLLY GOOD.NO KIDDING;)PRAISE GOD!

OOOH,JAY DID EXTREMELY WELL IN HER EXAMS AND SHE JUST GOT HER TOOTH EXTRACTED;)IM HAPPY FOR HER....*referrence to her exams*

well,it has been a rough week.havent been nerding much.

OOOH,TOMORROW GOING LUNCH WITH KIN,JER,VY AND ALL..

THE USUAL 6 OF US:)

BUT...JENG JENG JENG....

MY VYVY WILL BE AT PENANG:(..SHE CANT JOIN US:(...

SADLY,OTHER DAYS KIN AND TIM AND I CANT MAKE IT.SORI VYVY.

WE WILL MISS YOU:)

ANYWAY,GUESS WHAT?

GONNA SIT FOR MY JPJ TEST THIS FRIDAY...

IM KINDA SCARED AND EXCITED..

REALLY HOPE I PASS.HELP ME KAY,GOD?-PUPPY EYES-

IM GIFTED LA.MY DRIVING INSTRUCTER,ABANG IZAT IS REALLY A FUN DUDE.

HES REALLY TALKATIVE AND SO AM I.LOL.

BY THE WAY...

I STARTED THIS NEW HABIT.LOL.

TALKING TO GOD EVERY NIGHT.

BEFORE I SLEEP LA.USUALLY I JUST THANK HIM,SAY LORD'S PRAYER AND TIDUR.....

BUT FOR THE PAST TWO DAYS....BEEN LIKE,YOU KNOW...LIKE HOW I TALK TO A FRIEND?...IT FEELS GOOD ACTUALLY:)

OOH,AND I REALISED SOMETHING FROM YESTERDAY...

NOT ALL FRIENDS ARE REAL FRIENDS.LOL.

SO LONG;)

WHERE'S MY GIFT?

TEEHEE.

ITS THE SEASON:)

SIS GOT ME SPEAKERS FOR MY PC.SO SWEET EH?

I NEED TO GET MY FAMILY SOMETHING TOO.AND MY DARLING EX8:)

OHOH,WE ALL WENT OUT WITH TIM THE OTHER DAY.THE USUAL 6 OF US.

TIM,VY,JAY,KIN,JER AND I;)

KIN HAD EXAMS AND JER HAD STATS CLASS.

JAN JOINED US TOO.WISHED SHWE AND ALL COULD HAVE COME TOO.

NEVERTHELESS,WE HAD AWESOME FUN.

JAN MADE US RUN IN THE RAIN.LOL

WE HAD KL CHILDRENS DAY YESTERDAY.

PJ KIDS DID WELL,AS USUAL;)

WELL....TALKING ABOUT GIFTS.

I WAS WONDERING WHAT WAS GOD'S GIFT FOR ME THIS YEAR.

OF COURSE,HIS SACRIFICE ON THE CROSS WAS THE BEST GIFT EVER.

BUT FOR 2010,I REALISED TWO IMPORTANT GIFTS GOD HAS GIVEN ME.

1) MY AMAZING FAMILY!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING.THROUGH MY HAPINESS,THROUGH MY JOY,YOU ALL WERE THERE.WELL,I KNOW,I AM THE REBEL OF THE HOUSE.TEEHEE.YOUNGEST MA.

MANJA;)

PAPA,MUMMY,ANA AND AKA,IM BLESSED TO HAVE YOU ALL AS MY FAMILY;)

2)MY SISTERS FROM ANOTHER MOTHER!

EX8:)

I LOVE YOU GUYS ALOT.WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS FOR SO LONG AND NOTHING CAN SEPARATE US.TRULY,YOU GUYS ARE GODSENT.WHATEVER HAPPENS,EX8 FOREVER AND EVER:)

JINGLE BELLS:)

christmas is around the corner:)

going to thailand on christmas night with family:)

anyway...

had a short holiday with mum.Went to kedah,then penang.

well,all in all,it was fun and spiritually edifying:)

i just feel bad about children's day.

suppose to help with choral speaking,ffk last minute.

suppose to help with emcee-ing,ffk last minute.

this is what i am afraid of at times.

most of time,actually.

FAILING PEOPLE.

MAKING PEOPLE COUNT ON YOU,THEN POOF!,DISAPPEAR!

having your family count you,having your friends count on you,having people you barely know count on you,..its tiring...

this whole alevels things...

EDUCATION IS FUN...

BUT TO COME TO THE POINT WHERE ITS FUN,IT TAKES YOUR SWEAT AND BLOOD...

well.WHEN THE TOUGH GETS GOING,THE GOING GETS TOUGH EH?

SO INSTEAD OF COMPLAINING,IM GOING TO....

MAKE.A.DIFFERENCE.

keke.

one step at a time la kay;)

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

well said.

IN SHORT,DONT BE AFRAID OF.YOURSELF.

ANYWAY,HOHOHOHOHO!MERRY CHRISTMAS!